Sometimes my bright isn't enough for all my dark.
Sometimes we must be pushed to the edge of failure
before we can become better.
I have become better.
I can still be better.
But these false hopes stick like thorns
and burn like glowing iron.
I must find the will to draw them from the wound
with passion and purpose.
I cannot bare to carry these desires so unfulfilled
while I've lost myself in this somber solitude.
I'll fall within myself to purge my thoughts of what will never be
because I have more to offer this world than even I know.
We all deserve what we are willing to take.
Life is magnificent so take it for all its worth.
What if?
These insecurities plague my rending heart,
sent my head in stupid circles,
to pick apart.
In every fucked mistake without effort,
I've talked myself down into the dirt.
So I play a pointless game of what if,
leaving me stuck downright stiff.
What if I'm mistaken and overblown,
could it be that I'm the one,
letting you down?
But I Catch myself waiting for the phone,
pointing out that I'm all alone.
If only things could be different,
but that's just how they went.
I'll sport a smile as a bluff,
while I laugh for thinking,
I was good enough.
With these lines so well rehearsed,
just another tongue tied verse.
Two dam
Well I won't make you tell me
What I've come to understand.
We seem to be spinning
as we walk
lost in these sands
no two steps in the same direction
and running is no better.
No, my friend
I can't argue against
the words you wont say.
It does seem that way
the faster that we go
and the more will we place in our steps
all the faster our foot prints
wash away in the winds.
Of course, my friend
I wish to escape it all
but it seems as we tread the same path
so will oases always slip back
in to the sand
The rain falls where it wants to
and the wind blows where it will
but, my shadow, I swear we're standin' still.
Sometimes my bright isn't enough for all my dark.
Sometimes we must be pushed to the edge of failure
before we can become better.
I have become better.
I can still be better.
But these false hopes stick like thorns
and burn like glowing iron.
I must find the will to draw them from the wound
with passion and purpose.
I cannot bare to carry these desires so unfulfilled
while I've lost myself in this somber solitude.
I'll fall within myself to purge my thoughts of what will never be
because I have more to offer this world than even I know.
We all deserve what we are willing to take.
Life is magnificent so take it for all its worth.
Hello again,
I now have my Mechanical Engineering degree. Working on my Masters in Mechanical Engineering. I've sent things into space with NASA three times, and about to send a crystallization in microgravity experiment on a Terrier-improved Malemute rocket from NASA Wallops Flight Facility. I am the team leader of several engineering students for my university's RockSat-X microgravity program.
Lots of new things for me and engineering since I've been here. Way too much to list in one go. Not much drawing or art for the sake of art anymore. I've built high powered rockets. Robotic mining moon rover prototypes. Small UAVs. Working on a mult
Hello!
I haven't posted anything in awhile, obviously, but I could probably start most of my journal posts with that statement. I really haven't done much personal work in the last year. What I have done is a lot of game art and animations for the University's computer science and engineering department as an internship. We're working on an educational game for the iPod touch. Even I think my character creation and animation skills are lacking, but it has been a lot of fun and I've certainly improved much. The game itself is about giant algae blooms visible from space and how important viruses are to keeping them in check. I know not the mos